I've gone Stateside!

I am really happy that I got to be a part of 'The Parent du Jour', a site that asks parents all around the world for their experiences of parenthood and how it has affected them.

Motherhood has completely changed me as a person, and sometimes I mourn the old me. Don't get me wrong, I love being a mother and all, well most, of what it entails. Sometimes I miss the self confidence I feel was lost when I had my eldest child. Motherhood stripes you bear of everything you may previously have hidden behind, your job, your body and temporarily your social life. I was stuck with me twenty four seven, something that had never happened before. You are forced to examine who you really are in a way I don't think men ever do. Parts of me I liked and parts were slightly scary but I had no choice but to confront them. I learnt a lot about myself that I don't think I ever knew. I realised I didn't want the career I had, exercise is a must for me and I can't stay in my pyjamas past 9am or I start to feel a little crazy.

Although I don't think I suffered from depression I remember feeling lost and very emotionally exposed after the birth of my first child. Some people I had considered friends appeared in a new light as if motherhood was enabling me to see things with more clarity. The most important skill I have learnt is to live in the moment. It sounds so cliched but there are some things that you cannot control or change and that's fine. Babies and children should be enjoyed, so who cares about the kitchen floor being clean today, it doesn't matter. The second time around I've learnt to enjoy my baby more and not be so hard on myself, I'm lucky enough to be at home with him so I intend to enjoy it, because you don't get that time back and it goes so fast!

 The best advice I could ever give to a new/ish Mum is to read as many experiences of other mothers as you can. You are not alone and when it feels impossible and lonely, there is probably someone feeling exactly the same way as you did who can help contextualise how you are feeling. Better yet, you could start your own blog or if you don't want to share, a diary. Writing it all down is very therapeutic.

Thank you to 'The Parent du Jour' for making me realise that I'm not doing such a bad job after all!

Check out my contribution on 'The Parent du Jour' below
http://theparentdujour.com/2012/01/makawa-makanda-it-strengthens-you-if-you-let-it/

Cupcake Queen?

So my first attempt to create cupcake loveliness was all in all a good effort. I'm going to work on the cupcake base itself as it has been described as a bit 'dense' by tasters. I used The Hummingbird Bakery's cookbook so I will try another recipe next time. The icing of the cakes was much easier than I had previously experienced. Poli, my lovely teacher, tells me this is because I used a traditional piping bag this time. Last time I attempted to use a spray can icer (not the technical name), results were hideous!

So back to the lesson, once the piping bag was filled and nozzle fitted, a large nozzle is needed for cupcake swirliness. The next step is to start at outer edge of casing and circle around the outside. Each time you make the circle smaller and smaller until you end at the middle. The faster you go the tighter the swirl. For a 'high' cupcake you can keep building the icing up after cake is covered, just continue to go round and round.

Once the icing is done the fun comes. Choosing your decorations. Heart sprinkles, gold flecks, lustre spray, ball sprinkles and glitter. You really can let your imagination run wild. See the photos for some of my creations, although glitter doesn't photograph well, trust me it was on ALL of my cakes. I loved it!

My homework is to practice my swirls, I have the idea but my execution could be crisper. Also I'm planning on visiting Sugarshack in Kingsbury, the cake decorators Mecca. I am definitely writing a list, otherwise I could end up with the equivalent of a MAC counter in edible glitter.

WEDDING CAKE - NO PRESSURE

Today I have added a page which will hopefully chart my successful journey to baking and decorating my sister's wedding cake. I am slightly nervous about this task, but also very honoured that she has asked/allowed me to be responsible for what many see as a very important part of the day.

She has decided upon a cupcake tower with a large cake at the top, the idea being that she can freeze the top cake for their one year anniversary. Alternatively she wants mini 'wedding' cakes as an alternative to the cupcake. Either way I plan on sharing all of my attempts, hopefully triumphs and tips here.

Let the baking commence...

New Years Resolutions

So, it is that time of year when setting your resolutions has come around again. This year however, has been interesting for me because my partner and I have discussed the resolutions we should set as parents. This is where the argument/heated debate we've been having for the past few months reared its ugly head. Before I begin I wish to state that my hubby is a fantastic father who works extremly hard and who loves the bones of his kids but.....


I feel that my other half has a UFC style approach to teaching our eldest son how to 'defend' himself from other mixed martial arts competitors, I mean toddlers. I kid you not when I tell you that some of his words of wisdom include 'you do what you got to do son' teamed with 'hitting is wrong if you do it first, not if you're defending yourself'. When I tried to point out that our three year old may not be able to tell when he was using unnecessary force or when he should be defending himself, he replied that he doesn't want his son to be a 'victim' and it's important he learns to stick up for himself. I replied I didn't want our son to grow up not knowing right from wrong and feel that physical intimidation is an appropriate form of communication. I had visions of the future, handing my 16 year old son into the local police station after I'd recognised him looting a local footlocker on the 6 'o'clock news!


Now I may be being slightly melodramatic but it is very hard sometimes to balance the female and male views of parenting without one of you seriously bending your beliefs. Most of the male friends that I have consulted don't really see that encouraging him to stick up for himself is a problem. The ladies however, give sharp intakes of breath and scrunch up their faces as if confirming my son is on a downward spiral to immorality and wanton criminality.


I don't think that three year olds should be told that hitting is acceptable under any circumstances, my son has a very gentle nature but I have nonetheless caught him pinching one of his friends because he didn't like the way he had spoken to him. When asked why he had pinched his friend he replied 'He wasn't sharing and that's not nice.' This has happened on several occasions since his dad has had his 'talk' with him.


My conclusion is that we should encourage our son to communicate with his words, not his fists. I'm all for signing up to martial art classes when he's older, but because they encourage self control as well as self defence. However, my fundemental conclusion is that I am right and he is wrong!